So, school is done for these guys and we have registered with our "homeschool" school for the fall. In the fall is when we technically start the process of de-schooling I guess, but now it is summer..
I keep wanting to jump in and do something; make some sort of routine, or encourage goal setting or reading or something. I have so many hopes and dreams and worries and fears about what may and might or could and should be for our family in the coming months. It seems that there is only one thing to do... Chill out!
You would think that a person who has seen as much growth and change in people as I have would have this figured out by now, but sadly, I keep having to remember this lesson. I will never be of any use to anybody (including myself) if I come at life from a place of fear and control. I have to let that stuff go.
I also need to remember that I cannot save or change anybody here.. That is their own work to do. My job here is to support, cheer on, and as much as possible set the best conditions for success. I can be most helpful to everybody if I do my own work on myself.
For me this means, of course, continuing my beautiful practices of yoga and meditation. But also, it means finding the places where I am rigid in my thoughts and actions and building flexibility. So, this summer looks like it's going to be a practice of letting go of control, sitting more and giving people my full attention, asking for help instead of trying to do everything myself, and watching and trusting instead of jumping in and trying to make things happen.
Sometimes these things are easier for me to stick to if I approach them like a scientist, taking on these attitudes on purpose for an extended period of time so that I can watch really carefully and learn about it.
So far, I have watched what happens when I put down the fear and worry that my kids will just choose to stay attached to screens all summer if I don't do anything to change it. I noticed that after the first week, without me saying or doing anything, they started to choose other activities all on their own. They have some really great ideas! I am really curious if this is something that will continue. I will keep watching and see what happens.
Happy Summering everyone!
